I miss her. I really do.

I know I shouldn't.

And I know it's pretty pathetic...

but I do.

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Something rotten is happening in Deviantart. You know something is up when one of the FOUNDING members of an organization gets fired. You know it especially when the current admin has given no word as to why this has happened.

The whole community is in an uproar, as it well should be. Deviantart is a free hosting site for artists EVERYWHERE. The person with the most pageviews is even a filipino: [link] It could be said that DA is being more business-oriented as time progresses, but it has a right to be. More and more people are joining up and the bandwidth is expanding. Ads and membership are needed to fund this dream.

Yes, DA was a dream. A dream brought to online LIFE by two men Jark and Matteo. It was because of those men that we, the members of DA can post our works and share our comments and views with others.

As per the policy of deviantart, no member or ADMIN can delete threads or posts. If you post, then it is history. Say your apologies if you must, but you cannot edit your posts. It is because they want to preserve everything in DA. Just recently, a thread about Jark being fired was edited, to put it lightly, by one of the new admin members with no explanations given.

I didn't know Jark and Matteo up until somebody posted a little stamp as a deviation, but I'm glad I've heard of this. I know a lot about broken dreams.

Some people at the DA COMMUNITY has suggested boycott. I know this'll be effective if a lot of people join in. Deviantart has traffic precisely because the members post their art. All that traffic will go away. Business and money will go away.

The dreamers have stopped dreaming. How long can we live within their dreams?

I feel my life is defined by two things. Dreams and repsonsibility. I'm not going to go all socio-analytical and apply myself to the entire human race. I'm going to talk about me and if you find a bit of yourself, fine. If not, then I just hope its a good enough read.

All things considered, I still think of myself as a dreamer. Even though I appear pragmatic at best, pessimist at worst, I still possess that spark of hope and longing to attain something which I so strongly desire. I treasure my dreams and cultivate them. I do hide them because I know that dreams are fragile things, susceptible to being tarnished or destroyed by outside forces.

For all those things that dreams are, I hold them close to my heart.

Responsibilities are something I have always had to live with. It goes with being a kuya. I'd always have to be the strong one, even if I'm not. I'd rather not elaborate.

The compromises I'd have had to make are innumerable. And I'll have to live with them.

I'm not happy, but I'm contented.

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Classic Lines Girls Say
We’ve all heard these lines before (us guys and the few girls who actually had the guts to court a guy). I suck at the dating game and even more so when I was still in high school. I must’ve been turned down by every girl I ever courted and, consequently, gone through most of the turn-down lines ever invented by the female of the species.

So, without much further ado, I list them down. Feel free to add your own if I happened to miss a few.

For all the guys out there who ever courted a girl and got turned down, this is for you.

1. I love you as a friend/I think we’re better off as friends

This one’s a classic. All the guys alive who ever attempted courting the girl of their dreams must’ve heard this one at one point or the other. Condolences to those who’ve had the misfortune of hearing it more than once.

This usually means that the girl likes you enough to try and remain friends even though you already attempted to up the stakes and take your friendship to the next level.

Consider yourself lucky that you’ll be able to walk away with some dignity intact.

2. It’s not you…it’s me/You’re just too good for me

Another classic but a bit worse than “I love you as a friend” line.

The girl is trying to cushion your ego so it won’t hurt as much but at the same time she’s insulting your intelligence. “It’s not you…it’s me”!? I mean, c’mon!

On the other hand the girl may have a serious inferiority complex and could actually think that you are actually too good for her. In which case this could be a bit of a good news disguised as bad news.

She actually thinks that much of you which could mean that the fat lady hasn’t sung her final song yet.

3. I’m too young to get a boyfriend/ I’m prioritizing my studies

These lines are usually used by girls still in high school…right before you catch them with the campus hunk making out behind the chapel!

4. Now’s not the right time

She really doesn’t like you but don’t care enough or to couldn’t think of a better excuse. Unless, of course, a family member just died and she’s in the middle of mourning or she’s recovering from chemotherapy or a major operation.

In which case, it might not really be the greatest time to profess your intent for something more than friendship.

5. It just wouldn’t work out between us because (insert reason/excuse here)

At least the one who says this line bothered to think of something good for you. She respects you as a human being, at least, so be glad.

6. I’m in love with someone else

Er…at least she was honest. Now wipe your tears, pick up your heart from the floor, and put away that knife before you hurt someone (especially yourself).

7. A good friend of mine is in love with you and I can’t jeopardize our friendship

Out of all the lines in this list this is the one I hate the most.

Years ago, in high school, I courted this girl that I really, REALLY, liked. I actually thought it was going somewhere. She like me a lot, her parents liked me a lot, but sadly her friend liked me a lot too.

And it was a no-go because of that.

There’s more of course but they’re, basically, variations on these 7 lines but if you encountered new ones feel free to post them. I’d love to know how the ladies are turning down the boys nowadays in this day and age.

That goes out for the ladies as well.
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Ugh... sappy frustrations abound...

Twould seem appropriate that after two years in devart I have garnred 2000 views.

Thankee all.